Wednesday, May 22, 2013

Guilt of doing right or joy of doing wrong!

Owh my gosh!
Even some stupid online(sometime back subscription) leo horoscope can read my mind!
Says those angels and demons in my head are not at peace, the fight is so fearsome that even it's beyond my control.... 
The demon says" c'mon you can do better that that! You can break all the rules, cause rules are made so that they are broken.. Rules are made so that you know your boundaries..  But at the same time.... You know your boundaries very well...Don't you?
Then wait for what! Go get it! Just because you are told not to preach in, Just because you are bound you won't, Just because you swear to yourself you won't!

But then am the demon! I am dark! And if i go by my rules of darkness, my duty! Yeah you heard it right! My duty is to provoke you... To fight for yourself! To get what you want! To force you to act recklessly and ridiculously! Cause i love playing with your mind!


The angel says" Owh! you poor thing! come here, come to me! Let me help you draw a line, let me help you bring peace within you! If that is all it takes to bring you back from the horizon, i am ready to do it! Cause u love you and i won't let you us fall apart! I know what you are dealing with, but dear who hasn't! You know what doesn't kill you, makes you stronger and you know this very well so why are you hiding behind all that darkness! Why are you clinging to all that madness! Come to me! 
I will teach you how a draw a line!
I will teach you how to breathe!
I will teach you how to sleep! 
I will teach you how to be alive again!
I will teach you how to get that carefree life again!
I will, i can and i want to but only if you make an effort!


And like always am that solitary lonely boat swinging in between! No where to go and no where to hide! But then i ain't that stupid to do something irreversible! I ain't that strong to do something that is killing me! Unless you glue me, i am broken! Unless you say yes, i am lost!
I know you won't! I know you can't! I know everything! But kya karein, dil to bachaa hai jii, thoda kacha hai jii!!!


 The guilt of doing good scares me! The joy of doing bad kills me!



Thursday, May 16, 2013

Monday, May 6, 2013

Knowing the facts!

Knowing the fact that i have loved you from quite sometime 
And knowing the fact that it's not going to work!

Knowing the fact that i am afraid!
Knowing the fact that i am not the woman of your dreams!

Knowing the fact that you don't belong to me!
Knowing the fact that you are the best thing i will never have!

Knowing the fact that knowing the facts!

Knowing the fact that it is rather easier to know the facts, than hide it!

Instead of recycling my love, it is growing day by day!
Instead of putting it in back in my closet, it is all over me!
 It is jumping, it is running!

Help me! Save me!

Tuesday, April 9, 2013

Shall I be calling it telepathy or coincidence?
Shall i be calling it a distant calling or my calling?

Not one, not twice, it has happened before! It happens even now!
Before i had fought with it, now i just go with the flow!

But how long and how far? Where will i reach and when will i reach!

The more i think of you, the more difficult it becomes!
The less i try to miss you, the less possible it becomes!



Friday, March 22, 2013

Letter from the irrevocably in love

Dearly beloved,

I don't know where to start and where to end, but surely know how to start!
Isn't my love enough for me to say things that is left unsaid, untouched and unexplored.
Isn't my love enough for me to confess that i am irrevocably in love with you?
Isn't my love enough for me to fight against the desire?
Isn't my love enough for me to let you live your life?
Isn't my love enough for me to live?
Isn't my love enough for you to not realize the fact that am madly in love with you?
Isn't my love evident enough?
Is my love suffocating you???
Or am just suffocated with my own love?

I wouldn't say there are 101 ways to love you back but yes there are things about you which draws me even more! I don't know what keeps me waiting!

I love the sound of your giggle
I love your wicked smile
I love the way you give that sexy look
I love your hard core honest principle
I love your husky voice, specially that early morning male baritone voice
I love the way you give that puppy dog wink
I love it when you call me kid
I love it even more when you try to make understand
I love it when you wake me and i love it even more when you bid me good night
I love the way you smell
I love that white shirt on your tanned skin
I love that rain drop crawling down on your skin
I love the way you handle me, nobody has ever done that so well 
I don't what else i love about you but definitely i love you!

You are the best i ever had and you are the best i will never have!

Singing off
Your's 
Deeply irrevocably incredibly and madly in love with u- my beloved!